Maybe I'm Emo. Maybe I'm listening to Adele

Maybe I’m listening to Adele.

            Don’t judge me.

Maybe I had a great day.

Maybe I think I’m cute today.

            Don’t judge me.

Maybe I think I look like Shirley from What’s Happening with this short brown fro.

            I shouldn’t judge me.

Maybe I was updating my resume and CV and acknowledging the work I’ve been blessed to do in the world and it got me choked up.

Maybe I walked 10,000 steps for 3 days in a row and I’m still overweight.

Maybe I like my soft skin, my full body, my smile.

Maybe I’m getting older.

Maybe that’s better than the alternative.

Maybe I had a chance to speak to my mom, my cousin, my dear friends and find love, comfort, joy and support.

Maybe I am in love with a special woman.

            Don’t judge me.

Maybe I’m still listening to Adele.

Maybe I’m not a millionaire yet.

Maybe I already feel like one.

Maybe I’m not happy all the time.

Maybe I’m glad about that.

Maybe I appreciate the fluctuations.

Maybe they make me stronger.

Maybe Adele will sing me to sleep.

            Don’t judge me.

Maybe I just put my perfect little boy to sleep and he held me while I read to him and then sang him the goodnight song.

Maybe he told me I’m the best singer in the world.

Maybe I got on my knees at his bedside and started praying with him and then started thanking the creator so much I began crying.

Maybe my perfect little boy wiped my tears and told me he loves me and God loves me and it’s okay to cry happy tears.

Maybe just maybe this is the life of not only my dreams but of my conscious choosing.

Maybe just maybe this is heaven on earth.

Maybe this is perfection.

May Be.

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